i'm confuse

Today woke at 1 plus duno y so early wake then feel damn bored can so online chat chat then Cheryl keep so emo to Cheryl: if u treat mi as ur jie u better dun b emo n slit urself or u will not be forgiven by mi. so sian this two days keep raining,keep on go in audi play a while come out then saw mama online chat with her awhile i at there smoke la dunno y sudden feel stress ! After tat went to rm de then Di wan take money so pei him go back take first after tat walk there I go rm eat actually wan study de bo mood darling studyin lor. Then i found out tat our three relationship had fade n we'r not as close as last time i dunno y or mayb i think too much ? Darling dun even care mi le. Sms Kor he can oso dun reply mi. Wad have I done ? i wan to no the reason 4 nt botherin abt mi ? m I tat useless or wad ? Haii walk home think a lot of thing sms then slack at my house de hall chat chat then something i reali get mad on forget it he will nv no. He suddenly lost. Nvm he oso dun wan ans our call. Then went home i crying lor but who will believe mi. Now i just no tat i'm nothing at all it just a fucking bitch tat ppl hate