22 September 2012

Weeks have passed but everything it seems the same, I'm waiting hoping there's a change there isn't. 1 year but just took 1 day to ruin everything Im hurt but simply you just dont feel anything yeah ? I cried like nobody cares walking passed to the place we use to go. Never plan that 1 day I be losing you. Never mind as long as you're happy, I won't create more troubles for you I'll get back to where I suppose to belong. I can take it, it just few more months or years to overcome since I've so much experience on that everybody wanting to hurt me so much. Don't even ask me how happy am I ? Because I'm totally not . I'm gone, I don't know will you read this a not? You might be angry but this is what I feel.

7 September 2012

Woohoo ~~ bloggy ! I'm blogging after I drank thats maybe will build me more confidences. I would like to say thank for everything you have help me all along the way the jokes we have, those stupid stuff those laughter we have together. It seems to me you doesn't want to care anymore, everyone always tell me want me to be independent and be able to take care of myself but I've to say sorry I can't. I've enough of that words I've cry enough. I've been hurt Once twice thrice ,is my problem but I'm like this what you want me to do ?I'm having phobia I guess everything gonna be different now. You can just give up on me I've prepare the worst you don't even cares about how I feel I'm nobody to you maybe just a passerby yeah ? Partners, friends or whatever .. I'm sad enough, curse and swear at me I promise I won't fight back cause I'm too weak to do so people said that if there's any cracks there's no ways to cover it up. It's all my fault Im not suitable to be someone friend, I'm all alone.