29 October 2009

im back blogging, today working at ghim moh there was really very tired then keep on want to sleep like this si xiao qiang keep on say i si lian le . bu ke neng de . nothing much happening was just a normal day yes ! few more days is nov le then sooner dec then next year le woohoo ~ so happy got some pic on my phone but then lazy to update :X will update all the pic at once when im free tomorrow will be going back to my school. nights.

25 October 2009

i have not update my blog for so long ready sia. Today woke up and prepare for work after that the bus so long then fall asleep in the bus. Reached there have our lunch then we work work today is so busy because is SUNDAY family day woohoo ~ the coffee shop is full :D then went home at 11 today i guess today is our last day at AMK and then we will be going to ghim moh tomorrow ? i guess so hahaha alright nights guys :D byeeeeee ~

19 October 2009

im back blogging hehe ~ woohoo today we went to support Voguelicious today is the final haha guess what ? they won the compeition great work *clap clap* after that straight went to work cab down to there im so damn tired all thanks to my bro for making me cant sleep hmmmm keep on talking to me mEoW ~ after work we suddenly feel like dancing so we "just dance, gonna be ok, Da DO DO just dance ~ lala haha. After work Edmund fetch us home thank you. That fucker woke up and then called my mum as usual wth -.- then scolding my bro then me also kana but then i still like here in there out :X . My mother reached home started so quarrel haiz ~ cant he just ti liang your WIFE a bit ??? what kind of husband are you so useless man i guess some part of me is from you ba. alright i got nothing to say ready nights people.

18 October 2009

Im back blogging today haiz yesterday night totally cant sleep at all keep on thinking what the hell am i doing this few days and becoming so sensetive i guess is that dream on the last day of ton-ing then i totally out of contral of my emotions and started to believe in what im dreaming. I dream that all my friend keeping a secret away from me and keep on saying bad words at my back and then leave me in the end T.T so that time i woke up haiz ~ i totally change le becoming so sensetive, i was crying yesterday the whole night but then my family members all slept le so i have to cried alone in the dark i feel like telling someone but then i cannot find T.T I cry really hard and then around 6 plus still crying then fall asleep. Woke up that time saw my eyes was a bit sore, my mother keep on asking me what happen then i told her maybe my eyes is itchy i got scatch. Prepare le meet them at Cp again im the last one to reached then we headed to Ochard cheer for Voguelicious woohoo they are having compeition at Ochard outside Tangs so do come down and support them tomorrow for finals. After that went seprate ways today we went to Ghim Moh today working there was fun man but also tiring not enough sleep too :( After work Edmund and Uncle come fetch us go collect money in the car i was keep on thinking im really in the wrong to suddenly blast my attitude to them and pushing all the problems, the more i think the worst i cried T.T haiz i hope they will forgive me ba, hope everything will be the same.

17 October 2009

Today woke up at 4pm but then suprising today nobody woke me so thought they going work without me so online chating then found out they haven wake up. After that went to meet them at cp im late, so cab down and then all the way they being so cold to me as in im totally not there like this. WTF have i done to you all sia tell me la from ton-ing till now all treating me in this way all so cold to me as like i offences you all like this, NOT HAPPY with me just tell me lor at least give me a reason what I have done ma? I have helped you guys to patch back when you all quarel say good things for both sides and sometimes even be there for you guys but then when i need help who help me ? Now leh you all totally forget EVERYTHING i have done for you guys and just kicked me aside when now i really need people, if i have done something wrong i never even get one CHANCE of forgiveness like i everytime did something wrong, and how would i offence 3 people at a same time ? So what is FRIENDS and then where is all the friendship we use to have everything just gone in a day ? MOST IMPORTANTLY WTF HAVE I DONE ?

16 October 2009

Today woke up around 2 or 3 then faster get prepare and then went to meet them at Compasspoint. After that off we went to Ang Mo Kio we today have new place to go hmmm .. Bukit Panjang shopping mall there wahh there the place really very small lor then Junwen say very sian so ask him come.We keep on turning round and round after that its getting late le so we cab back to Ang Mo Kio we eat at there and then slack a while lor after that Edmund drive us home thats all, and i have decided one thing im going to change into BRAND NEW MEE haha my blog title im NOT going to EMO anymore i think it is not worth it haha i zhang da le of course, and then another thing i also have make up my mind if they no longer borther about me its ok de because in secondary also kana kick out quite a number of times le so i think now it haven gone back to last time but then i guess this time round i should will be alone because now also not schooling anymore le . Hao everything i have xiang tong le so thats all ba see how i change ba hahaha. Tomorrow wonder where are we working im so qi dai hehe nothing much to update le nights.

14 October 2009

Im back blogging so long never blog. Yesterday i totally cant sleep haiz ~ i keep on turning here and there thinking about something then cannot sleep all the way to 6am finally bomb fall asleep. Then woke up around 2 plus prepare le went to work im going to choing all the way i will work and work and work to earn money money. I dont know why this few days i cant sleep lor keep on turn here and there try to talk to my bear bear play play with them also cant sleep keep on morning then fall asleep ROAR ! hmm i got a lot things haven shi xian lor. hao la nothing much to update le working tmr bye bye ~

9 - 10 October 2009

9 October 2009
Woke up then today going to Tampines mall for our secret mission haiz ~ our mission still not complete dont know when will have mirical. Hmm walking at tampines round and round again i guess maybe the shopkeeper know us le ba. After work too bus to Ang Mo Kio waited for Kenny father then off we went to his house ton, we didnt even notice the time played till 7 plus ? then everyone fall asleep. zzz ~

10 October 2009
2 plus going 3 like this they woke me up im really a pig la wont wake so easily de zzz ~ After that everyone prepare then slack slack till 5 going to 6 plus le then all went to work le lor today our venue is Compasspoint and Tampines mall so was searching no cules again. Then train back to Ang Mo Kio was so sleepy today then reached there totally my mood totally down to zero i sitting behind listening to song and then hopefully somebody know im lost but then too bad no one cares me so nevermind i sit there about half an hour listening to song then my tears fall haiz ~ when Im in car that time im totally very quiet never talked when playing sad song im still crying. Reached Kenny house i tried to contral but then still nobody care me i like so transparent after that going home that time i decided to go to RP but then i lost somewhere i cried all along the way to find back my house not because i lost my way is my thoughts make me feel like crying.

This is all i think( Those fuckers who think that this is nothing you are WRONG ! all this means a lot of important to me so if think this is childish just get off ) Thank

Firstly: My family already like SHIT like this ready and i dont even put on any hope on them and no need them to even show care for me.

Secondly: I put most of my hope on my cliques and friends to just show a bit of concern and cares for me but then as result show im being so transparent nevermind its ok.

Thirdly: I have nothing left, just left with god to grant my wishes but then there is no uses no matter then hard i pray nothing happen haiz no use also my wishes never come true.

Just now i even think of commiting suicide while walking i pass the traffic light without red man and few cars horn at me i jump up then im still crying like hell haizz ~ Really there is nothing for me to do now. No Family care, No Friends concern and even god also dont grant my this little wishes.
i really have nothing to say now good night.

7 October 2009

hmm im back blogging omg man ~ so long never update my blog le. Now woke up then later going to work le haha have special mission so cannot say :p this time round i guess will be in Bugis if im not wrong will be with my sheng jing bing jie jie (let her saw sure die de) hoho ~ sian ahh ~ few more days jiu school reopen le seriously dont wish to go school le and then wonder i will work hard a not ? oh ya guys ! woohoo ~ my phone line have been cut off so i wont be replying message anything jiu make a call alright ? hehe bye people .