Self reflect

All promises is just a lies to me, the only thing is disappointment what else ? Everyone is just letting me down, making me hard to trust anyone now Why ? Or am I too easy to get cheated ? 

Future

I'm turning 21 in just a few days time, starting to think what I want to do ? How to achieve a better life for my family and me ? I still lots of things not done, I want to study, I want to continue my music path, I want to learn piano,drums and guitar. I want to earn lots of lots of money, money is never enough in this society T.T 

Daily life

Boring ~~ work go home watch dramas and sleep, next day, wake up work then home zzz.. I'm gonna turn into a mushrooms soon.  

September

Few more weeks to 21st but I'm disappointed, this year birthday there won't be any celebration due to last year birthday my uncle fought with my uncle in the end now turn out to be my fault ! My mum gave me the best answer is "to prevent last year scenario happening so there won't be any celebration, you ownself go celebrate"IT ISN'T MY FAULT I DIDN'T CAUSE THEM TO FIGHT !  thank to her this words and all along the way criticize all my friends and whoever is with me said they are not good this and that whatever so everything turn up to be like that till now im all ALONE. I've saw most of my friends who is turning 21st had a great time spending with family, relative and friends Who dont wish to have this kind of unforgettable birthday celebration,  In few weeks time is my birthday I'm thinking what am I suppose to do ? Or should I just take it just an ordinary day to pass, really such a disappointment to hear these words said from her. Hais ~ I don't know what words to describe my feelings. 

还是要孤单的度过吗？