1 FEB 2012

YES ! It's already 2012 ! I thought everything will be OVER ! And what the fuck I saw ? When I just reach home I thought nothing will happen in the end that FUCKER run out of the room and push my mummy towards her face and she FALL ! And the glasses broke again . Its happening again and over again I seriously wanted them to divorce it's is really better for my mummy as for me I'm ok with it we all grow . I can just work hard and take care of my brother and I can feed him ! I no need that bastard help . Thanks god im still alive TODAY ! Im really sick and tired of it ! Saw this kind of things happen and happen again till I really got phobia with it ! Saw one time can at least last for a month in my memory but the pain still stays ! :( I really can't take it anymore im going to become crazy !! FUCKER !!!! I'll always HATE HIM TO THE MAX .

18 jan 2012

Time fly so fast , it's gonna be Chinese new year firstly I think I gonna get a big big bag to fill with a lot a lot of red packets haha. Recently have been going bugis again and again with my dearest ah pa (lion) LOL .. Haha bring "him" to bugis "market" to shop around quite addictive I think he can buy down the whole shop la ! Hahah. So damn fun at least I won't be rotting at home now and no need think so much , work go out till tired then reach home bath then bomb sleep. Enjoy doing the same thing again and again everyday got so much happening things going on . Meow .. Short posting nights everyone .

12 Jan 2012

Wonderful now I'm like living in a prison, asking me this and that argh ! PLEASE I NEED SOME PRIVACY ! Being a friend it's like so so hard already.

3 Jan 2012

Weee ~ finally is 2012 ! Thought it was a good start, but then im wrong starting from christmas eve i stayed at home like an idiot luckily my dearest colleague going out that's why I can tag along, count down nothing much just have some drinks with panda and some of her friends. This few days really very emo. how pathetic am I when all this special occasion came and I've no one to go out with, I've to stay at home :( i dont want ! I'm also afraid to mix around, people who knows me well will know what happen . Hais ~ then about the rest of the occasion ? I also have to celebrate it alone ? I don't want T.T I just want one group or few people which I really trust , 季节提醒我孤单. Sometimes I think that just work and work and went back home rest when comes to weekends I've nothing to do again I've to rot at home maybe the whole house is empty or my brother company me. I just wanted people to understand me accompany me and don't left me alone. Seriously I'm tired le I haven been crying for like months le which I think I make a great improvement the fact is wrong actually I'm trying to make myself busy and not to think about all this things telling myself that there is no one there it's ok ! I'm ok . If anyone of you put into my shoe and think about it when there's no one there and when you really feel like dying cause thinking this world there's not meaningful for you anymore. 我说我不哭是假的。我也是人有感情。stay at home keep on nagging nag and nag, yes ! I'm lazy this is the fact but I'm really feeling very very tired I don't feel like doing anything. All along the way I'm not doing well, I hate myself those people who have show me lots of concern thanks a lot to you guys. I'll never forget and those who have ever help me . Well well well ... I WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING AND START A NEW LIFE .......


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