25 May 2010

Woohoo ~ went out today meet jie jie at night then went to Bugis haha.. Jie play car car then after we go play lan haha XP very fun. After that took bus 80 back to Sengkang le wor. Find Desmond then Vincent came up then Vin and Randy haha . Jie jie be our story teller told us a lot of her story after that all went to Cheers to buy things then seat at void deck talk cock haha then Jie Jie help Desmond make up damn look like girl sia OMG ! then her bf Vin XP haha damn funny sia but then didnt manage to video it down. haha.. After that tio people complain then we all like now already 6 plus le lor a bit lame leh then had our information written down after that all went home. This few days i have been crying all along the way haiz ~ i dont want to talk much about here is my personal thingy ~ Alright bye bye people.

21 May 2010

Woke up at around 2 plus by my grandmother knocking at our door to wake us up thought what happen then jump up open the door for her prepare and went to re-new our passport oh gosh the picture looks really sucks and then today took the photo also but then is much more better XP after that went to Jie Jie house downstairs wait for her walking here and there haha. Went to Orchard to find her friend walk to far east there and back to cini haha exercise sia walk around then went to Sing K so long never go le la then all mood like not good de both break off :( haiz ~ after that took bus all along the way was quite quiet have something in my mind. Thinking about is there really a thing call forever after so much pain i have suffer im really hard to accept that word ! FOREVER meaning last long will not break, wont lost contact ? how about forever friends ? i dont know la also dont want to find so much things to make myself crazy. Reach Desmond house's still thinking about something listen them talk blah blah blah then went to cheers bought things then sit at void deck chit chat then went home le. I dont know people know how i feel a not i dont like those kinds of feeling like being sent away i dont want explain further maybe i need time to cool down myself and stop thinking about those things ba. Im really very sad leh was typing and crying at the same time. I need to go cool down le ~






FOREVER= HOW LONG WILL IT LASTS ?

20 May 2010

im back to blogging le. Woo ~ sian sia the whole day woke up by my mummy at 2 plus still damn tired yesterday we were drunk lor XP Went to have lunch with my grandmother after that walk around i damn sleepy want to go home sleep . Very worry things will happen to my jie jie but then heng ar nothing happen to her woot ~ hmm then night time have dinner then online then went to find baby back home thats all .. ~

18 May 2010

*yawn* Im back to blogging, am so tired right now is already 4.04 am Im still awake wondering what can i do so decided to come blogging. Today woke at around 5 plus because last night we went to play rain LOL very free too long never played and we sit at the playground like for 2 hours ENJOYING the cold wind blowing then finally cannot stand ready so went back to baby house then went home, today watch show at home then meet jie jie around 8 to 9 like this haha. Went to Lavender,Bugis and little indian haha then some how somebody to call and rush her home so went home faster that reach home no key haiz waited my brother home then online then know something but then should keep it is private but then i really dont understand, and she never tell me what happen then now i dont know what to do very blur right now. Alright guess it's getting late going to sleep right now =)


I dont know why i just feel like crying

14 May 2010

After so 1 whole week of fun is enough le and it's time to surrender liao and go back home. This whole week learn a lot of things and see thourgh a lot of things :) after lots of thinking reflections i finally know what to do le i dont care after i go back home what will happen but then i must thank jie jie and baby ~ if not them i sure die liao in this 1 whole week. Life is a challenge for everyone but then there are also so call memories and happiness, Everyone have it's own life, stress, friendship,relationship,family :) i finally understand it le. But then my this mind dont know when it turn crazy again XP will try to. hehe ~ Really is time to get back le and guys by the way my phone line is CUT off so wont be able to contact me but then dont worry will try top-up my prepaid card de :) Will soon update when i reach home de bye bye ~~~

12 May 2010

This few days i really think a lot of things and maybe this few days when im out is the most happy monet and let me change back to my passed the cheerful type of me i really want to maintain that side of me rather then being emo and crying let hell everyday . I dont know what to say ..... END

12 May 2010

IF everything can be so easily settle how would i like it ? I just dont want her to care which kind of friends im mixing with i dont care whether is good or bad. I really dislike those kind of feelings by being alone all by myself, being emo or whatever shit. So whats that meaning of having a tattoo or smoking or drinking is a bad person ? Everyone have it's passed did anyone give them another chance ? Whatever i say people will always say i did the wrong move. This time round im protecting my friend why ? Because i dont want to lost any of my friends anymore i have enough of being alone. Whenever i have problems who can help me out ? WHO ?! I dont want to say much about i want to cool down at the time being.

10 May 2010

Seriously i dont know what to do, I know im those kind of soft spoken person yeah and I know that im those kind of very hum person. I cant sort out things and now im really really going crazy pretty soon. My mother report to police thank to her so much man . I LOVE IT A LOT ! now the problem is Jie jie keep on help me but then i dont even know how to help myself to solve this, im really afraid if she been lock up , Jail ? Or whatever SHIT. Npw my mind is totally 100% empty dont know what to do if really one day those officers really found me so what ? they going to send me to girls home ? Always use this kind of thing to threaten people i already said i have my own freedom to mix whatever friends it is. I dont want you to care about it like mei mei say, how could someone just judge the cover without opening it. This is really correct, now my heart really very pain i dont want someone who is close to me and gone like this or maybe this is god arrangement i really dont know. I just know that if someone is close to me the person will get bad luck i dont know this is my imagination or its true i cannot make it clear now im like a animals losing the way i dont know what will be my decision i really dont know .. Haiz ~


Im going to die pretty soon le i cant stand it anymore ~

8 May 2010

I guess all of the thing is going to have a ending. My life now totally is like rubbish i know if i tell people who knows me they must thought that chey is just a small thing or whatever shit for me is really enough le Im really sick of tired to have this kind of life. Who dont want freedom ? everyone wants it of course, but then my parents just dont know what i really want they say we are like happy family ? Ya is only they say so but then did they ask us a not ? they dont know what we really want think that everything they done for us is correct ? LOL ! When that day she lock me home ! im like being a dog ya i know i do all this im like so bu xiao i really have enough of it le i need time to cool down she can even like this scold my jie jie ... -.- forget it la this kind of family ! im really tired of it le. Alright i have nothing much more to say .




I just need time to cool down

7 May 2010

Im back to blogging this few days really there's lots of thing happening in my life i really hate it a lot especially my house things. Yesterday have a big quarrel with my mother and then she lock us home that kind of feelings really SUCKS what could i say ? Haiz ~ thinking back about those nightmare i always dream when i was young really feel quite sad and i afraid of losing someone close to me that is true haiz ~ but then this time round she is really a bit over le. I dont know how to say i really feel very sad. Life is short maybe somedays something happen and the person who have passed away. Haiz ~ whenever i think of it, it really bring me down and my tears are uncontrollable falling maybe after somedays i have cool down and really think about it, it just the matter of time ba. No ones know what i really want i just want people to care for me and love me thats all is it so difficult till my parents dont even know it ?! LOL ~ alright nothing much to update byeeeeeeeee~












Life is really very short..

2 May 2010

woke up around 3 ++ after that went down with jie jie to buy things this and that. then reach home play mahjong again have news that need to go over to make computer thingy reach there around 6 then help out all the way to 10 then went to Plaza Sing to find my brother they all arcade then meet Tang Yong over there. They went to watch movie we 2 idiots sitting there for hours waiting for them to finish then chatted a lot a lot of things hahaha .. Then slack till around 5 plus cab home meet jie jie then go home together. So here am i updating my blog again hehe ~ nights everyone :D byeee ~