16 October 2014

I haven been updating my blog for a long time, when is the last time I cried ? I feel so lost, I couldn't do things properly and with my fuck up attitude. I want to apologize to those I had offended, I'm really sorry. I had failed my final theory again ! It's the 3rd time, I'm getting tired people said those who really put in effort will be successful but how about me ? I'm always trying my best to make things works, yes, indeed I'm stupid, I'm slower than other people out there, I'm still trying so hard to catch up did anybody notice about it ? Getting tired of my life why must I live to suffer, why fate is playing with me? Everything I do is not going smooth I'm really pissed , What did I done wrong ? Can anybody tell me ? When I'm into something nobody is supporting to me. Seriously can I just die I feel so tired there's nothing worth for me to remember . Everyday I'm always trying to cheer myself up telling myself today it's another new day. I feel that people around me is drifting away day by day, I'm not thinking too much I'm trying hard to change but I failed.