11 December 2010

I'm back to blogging again ~ i think now im going to blog again. This few days im really not happy at all i have been crying all the times ? who know about it ? i'm WEAK ! i do cry easily because of such of the small things . But i cried who will saw it ? only myself when im alone. I cry how hard how pain nobody's know about it. I cant find anyone to talk to i felt so damn lost, WHO WHO WHO ?? even the person who i wanted to tell my everything is no longer there anymore . i only can post up my feelings in the blog. Why god is always playing with people ? Got the fate to meet each other but then always want it to be separate in the end so this is my life ? i feel so terrible i trusted de person i always wanted to see the person have gone again . I'm trap the the very deep of the dark holes, who got the key to release me out ?

9 December 2010

Time passed so fast it soon going to Christmas wonder how this year going to celebrate it, Today was kinda of bored and im feeling im losing someone maybe im wrong but the feelings is still there. :( I really dont know how future is going to process. Im feeling uneasy, why ? Just hope today can just passed seriously im damn bored today. I wanted to meet someone but i couldn't it just too far and im unable to make my way over at home is really bored . I dont want to stay home alone.