29 Feb 2012

Weee ~ so long didn't blog, very tired from the starting of the week, I think I'll get use to it even when I didn't work on weekends the latest time I woke up is at 12 or 1. Today is pay day hurray $$$ I wanted my iPhone badly :( meow ... Work work as usual nothing much special happen, after work went home meet family for dinner then after that walk back home . Then that idiot everyday showing attitude DAMN ! I see Liao also sian .. Arghh !!

9 Feb 2012

I really don't know what to do, being a good person people think that you're being to extra or acting like so fake , being a bad person forever people gonna say bad things about you behind your back. WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO DO !? I very tired I totally Don't feel like doing anything , hais ....

5 Feb 2012

Yawn .. Today is so tired tired went to k last night , then watching movie at 10.45 super early woke up prepare cab to hougang to take stuff, after that watch 小孩不坏。very very nice movie plus is like so similar to my situation now !! After movie went to have kfc for breakfast ? Train to grandma house eat lunch then play mahjong with them so so stress, think my hair gonna drop a lot ... Very very tired then 8.30 cab home home .. GOOD NEWS ! MY MUMMY IS COMING BACK HOME SOON ! But don't know when is it maybe after our Genting trip weeee ~~~~ oh ya of course I won't forget those who help me when I'm down when I really stress and I've no one to turn to. Thanks to egg, ah pa, ah ma, Lao zhu , Lao Jie, bro, Baobei, mao and those who heard my sorrow and console me . I really love you guys a lot ! I think if those days I've no one to turn to I'm just gonna be a walking dead without any soul in me and crying along, main point is I'm back ! Weee .. ~~~~ so you all gonna headache and take all my rubbish :p weeeee ...

4 Feb 2012

Third day of emo-ing last Night I've cried again, fall asleep at around 1 plus morning almost overslept , yawn woke up prepare then off to work, work as usual Paige left us , hmmmm .. Things gonna be same again , ever lasting forms for us to do.... Argh .. Then after lunch time actually nothing much happen mummy call and chat with me, after that asking about Genting trip during weekdays im stuck in the middle, not enough man power, mummy off for one month then maybe is the only time can stay with her for at least 3 days also good . But then hais I don't know what to do then I just hide inside my room, I cried ~ Cause I knew that the percentage of me getting leave on those days is totally impossible, boss actually asked me to choose nearest to weekend but weekend is more expensive then mummy said if you cannot then never mind, then I run out of the office and I cried. Lion came to find me and said that my leave is approve . I'm so damn happy till I don't know how to thanks them, but they gonna have bad times for this 3 days really really thanks a lot love you guys so much ... Weeee ~ then after work went to find mummy then we have buffet for our dinner SUPER FAT ! Then smoke awhile there are no cab damn ! Walk till so far and got in the cab . I'm so happy ...

2 feb 2012

Second day of emo-ing, today woke up actually in a happy mood then after that I heard some songs, I sing with my mummy . When I'm in car I can't bear with it I silently cried I think the rest of the month also should be like this I really really trying my best just to hide my sadness away, during work time I'm just looking at the clock wanted to fly over to find my mummy but I also feel that I'm sorry for my Lao zhu cause I can't help her for the whole day I left her alone. :( I walk out of office raining heavily I cried along the way to mrt since its raining and there won't be anyone looking. When I reach saw mummy I'm so so HAPPY ! Then bring her see doctor first then after that we shop some clothes for her after that they went off, then have dinner . That's all for the day but whenever I think I keep on crying ... Hard day ! When I'm young I keep on counting till how old I can see my parents then keep on counting the age between me and them when after counting I realize human will pass away one day and ended up in crying but now I keep thinking that I can't see them I don't have a family ! I really feel very very very SAD ! EMO-ING

2 Feb 2012

First day of emo-ing seriously totally no mood for anything in office totally like a zombie, hais no mood for everything, everything also do wrong. Hais ~ wanted to cry but I cannot CRY ! Cause I won't give up. Mummy just called me and tell me the whole story , about what happen yesterday, seriously I don't know why is he like that ! Is like this kind of words he cannot take it ! DAMN ! Then mummy confirm with me that she going to divorce with him. I also quite happy or her finally she found her own freedom and no longer need to feel all those pain she had . No matter what I'll take care of my brother I won't like him hungry like he did ! NOW! I'm standing in my mother role I gotta learn washing clothes . I hope he will really just fuck off ..