26 March 2014

Blogging time, didn't really have time to update everyday being so tired had been drinking almost every night seriously to put myself to sleep who will understand that kind of feeling I got no choice, if not I couldn't sleep, i really have been thinking a lot. The past when we're out for dinner or drink talking rubbish talking about life ,although it's just a few hour I cherish every moment but now everything seems to be so different I can't find anyone out there to talk to say how Im feeling,even during work  whenever I think about it I don't know when we become so far apart each other, I don't even know when this happen , those moments when we're disturbing each other seriously I feel like crying when I think back I've been controlling all the time when my tears is about to drop, seriously I admit I'm WEAK, I'm soft spoken person those people who knows me well knew I don't really talk that's the true me people could easily make use of me or can find me whenever they're bored or lonely or etc ... I've repeated myself too many times I'm tired I don't want to repeat myself again. If you think that I have been thinking too much asked yourself how close we are in the passed ? Don't you find any different last time and now ? If you don't get it never mind let it be the passed, I'll try my very best to forget everything take it as it never happen before I'll try to act like normal I won't care anymore,let it be, let me to be emo.  I'm tired of explaining, saying what's on my mind , everyone got their life to live on, I couldn't change much. I gotta let it go.