3 Jan 2012

Weee ~ finally is 2012 ! Thought it was a good start, but then im wrong starting from christmas eve i stayed at home like an idiot luckily my dearest colleague going out that's why I can tag along, count down nothing much just have some drinks with panda and some of her friends. This few days really very emo. how pathetic am I when all this special occasion came and I've no one to go out with, I've to stay at home :( i dont want ! I'm also afraid to mix around, people who knows me well will know what happen . Hais ~ then about the rest of the occasion ? I also have to celebrate it alone ? I don't want T.T I just want one group or few people which I really trust , 季节提醒我孤单. Sometimes I think that just work and work and went back home rest when comes to weekends I've nothing to do again I've to rot at home maybe the whole house is empty or my brother company me. I just wanted people to understand me accompany me and don't left me alone. Seriously I'm tired le I haven been crying for like months le which I think I make a great improvement the fact is wrong actually I'm trying to make myself busy and not to think about all this things telling myself that there is no one there it's ok ! I'm ok . If anyone of you put into my shoe and think about it when there's no one there and when you really feel like dying cause thinking this world there's not meaningful for you anymore. 我说我不哭是假的。我也是人有感情。stay at home keep on nagging nag and nag, yes ! I'm lazy this is the fact but I'm really feeling very very tired I don't feel like doing anything. All along the way I'm not doing well, I hate myself those people who have show me lots of concern thanks a lot to you guys. I'll never forget and those who have ever help me . Well well well ... I WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING AND START A NEW LIFE .......


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没人知道我多孤单。