10 May 2012

I'm EMO again !~ I think I'm just being too selfish I feel so guilty and helpless I'm like lost in my own world I can't walk out of this maze it is not so easy as what I think, I'm trying to escape in the dark emptiness inside me. If really I can turn back time to the most happiest time I've, I'm not letting go but truth is always so cruel.This is why people always said when you lost something then you will regret realise how important it is. The life I always wanted to have . First, second third .. And what's more of suffering when I've no problem im so bored and panic when I've have problem same this is human being right ? 20 year of life in this world hoping to see a little changes but it just seems like happening the every few years people start going off am I really that BAD ? I got cheated I have been make use. how silly am I to actually thinks that this world is so perfect how innocent am I? People said you will learn when you fall but I trying to improve but I still crawling,struggling to get up and I'm push down again like someone is stepping on me and I can't breath . I'm so going to be DEAD ~~~~~~