19 July 2014

After a week of hell in work, finally I've time to update. Out of a sudden I lost interested in everything in life, work, friend. Tired to think, attitude getting back to worst. I couldn't think of anything. Think I really need a short break. I'm drinking to numb myself, fuck my life ! My mind just went totally blank. Tired tired tired.. 

Work,

I don't know since when it affecting my work, now I seems to ignore all the problems. I couldn't really think of a way to solve it, i feels like shit. I just can't really do what am I suppose to do. Sigh ~ how ??

Friends,

Now, I'm like not interested catch up with my friends, I lost topic with them. I don't know how to help them, when they needed help so much. Hais, human is weird when you finally have somebody out there but ... 

Suspect that I had Orthostatic tremor (OT)

Went to sgh today, to do my nerve obersavtion test first experience, was really terrified watched some videos on YouTube and scared myself -.- Spend about 15 mins to wait for my turn, the test start with a little voltage to the strongest voltage on both my arms and legs, was being marked with a pen and some measurements, I can't really take the pain T.T especially when she adjust it to the strongest part, the test took about 1 hour to complete, there goes my money.

Next appointment date is on the 30th of this month, hopefully will find out what happen. Visited hospital last year because of my migraine but everything is fine after that. This year again .. Hais, I'm feeling OLD !